I’m on my ft about eight hours a day for my job, and when I’m not working I attempt to trip my bike not less than as soon as a day. I’ve a really apathetic persona and have usually little to no care or empathy in any sense or material. Any time i attempt to be empathetic, I notice how silly a given state of affairs is, turn into conscious of how the particular person’s adverse feelings are merely their unconscious psychology compensating to guard their ego, after which merely determine I don’t care. Even for issues as drastic as loss of life or illness I’ve little curiosity. When my uncle died, I bought over it after the funeral. When grandma handed, I attended the funeral with out mourning. Once I was instructed my elder had gotten most cancers, the knowledge didn’t part me. When my coworker instructed me she had most cancers, I didn’t even change tone of voice. Political occasions are irrelevant to me. Financial wealth is of no concern to me. I discover that meditation requires surpassing emotional suppression and points as a way to progress additional via the chakras, however I merely would not have any feelings to unravel. Any feelings I do expertise, I can merely brush off. I’m attempting to open my root chakra, however have no idea when, the place, or how this may happen, or if I’ll even know whether or not it is open or not. Can somebody please assist me out?
EDIT: I ought to in all probability add on that this identical vacancy of emotion has despatched me into depressions which have reached the stage of existential chrisis and spanned out for six months, which has occurred about three occasions now. I’m solely 17.