I opened 5/7 chakras (all the middle ones) throughout a 10 silent meditation retreat.
Afterwards I discovered myself carry conscious of my ideas simply, automactically, 24/7. I healed illnesses and was feeling my feelings deeply.
2 months later I made a decision the progress was unbreachable and determined to bask in extra pleasures like fapping, binging Netflix, extra meals/sweet, and so on.
Then I had a relapse of an outdated illness after just a few days of this indulgence. The illness is a manifestation of despair (blockage in backside three chakras)
Now a lot of the advantages I skilled up to now 2 months are gone.
Can anybody inform me what occurred? Is it closed for Good? How unhealthy did I mess up? What do you advocate I do?