Bother opening my coronary heart chakra

Howdy. I’ve been meditating over a 12 months and have had quite a lot of totally different experiences. Some very enlightening and a few very darkish. Inside the previous few months I’ve actually been engaged on chakra meditations to balancing and opening them up primarily specializing in the decrease 4 chakras to remain grounded earlier than I transfer into the religious realm with third eye and crown.

Not too long ago I’ve been having a serious situation attempting to do coronary heart chakra meditations. For some motive I can not vibe with it and the mantras of compassion and together with others have all the time been a battle for me so I find yourself turning it off midway by means of and going again to sacral or root chakra meditations as a result of it is what I really feel snug with. Nevertheless I do know clearing my coronary heart chakra is the following step within the journey however for some motive I’ve an enormous blockage attempting to do it. At any time when I take into consideration doing a coronary heart chakra meditation it makes me not wish to meditate in any respect.

Any recommendation to beat this blockage can be appreciated. A aspect be aware is that I’m an introvert and don’t love together with others and have wreckage from the previous when attempting to incorporate others. I’m additionally a Most cancers and am very emotional for a person (I really feel like at the least) I additionally really feel like I do every part in my energy subconsciously to keep away from getting near different individuals as a result of I dwell in concern of getting damage but once more.

Photo voltaic Plexus bother

I’m a 23 12 months previous male. About three or four years in the past I used to be launched to “The Energy of Now” by Eckhart Tolle, and determined to actually make spirituality and peace as the first purpose of my life. I can keep in mind feeling very at peace with every part round me for a 12 months or so, meditating, spending time and feeling in concord with nature. This was earlier than having an eventual crash a few years in the past the place I fully remoted myself and stopped collaborating in life. I hated myself and I hated life, however I attempted to consider my ‘self’ as an phantasm. It actually fucked me up. I assumed nothing was extra necessary than ‘ridding myself of my ego’, however what i used to be doing was crushing and destroying my life. I feel I misplaced my sense of individuality as a result of I used to be focusing a lot on staying current and noticing issues round me as a substitute of specializing in myself, which I now really feel like I have to do extra of.

Anyhow. I’ve an issue in my photo voltaic plexus space. Generally this space pulses and vibrates very strongly and I really feel very anxious. Often when I’m out in public in a giant crowd the place I’m anticipated to take part. Different occasions it would simply really feel very overactive once I’m at dwelling or on my own. Yoga helps to calm this down, nevertheless it nonetheless looks like after many months the foundation drawback isn’t being fastened. I feel it has triggered me to have some digestive issues as properly.

This space is linked carefully with ego so I’m questioning what this all means? What am I alleged to do to handle these points? My life has since gotten significantly better, I am working loads and have a girlfriend and have been collaborating in life far more. However what does it means to have a wholesome ego and a wholesome sense of your true self, however not being too taken in by this ‘little me’ with all of the little me issues. I really feel like a few of my different chakras want work, so it may maybe be attributed to that. However this has left me confused as to the aim of the ego as a result of we are supposed to actually dwell from our coronary heart, but our ego and can and drive is there for it is personal causes and wishes it personal consideration and steadiness. Thanks for studying/.